Adam, Jenny, Katie and Isaac: January 2009

angels on earth....

I just wanted to give a big thank you to my family and friends for everything. I have been having abdominal issues again, and am floored by all the love and support I have gotten. I have this wonderful loving network of friends that are always there for me. Always there to band together to give words of encouragement, and send meals of nourishmant. Thank you girls, for past and future love and help.

Jenn (friend) you are a bottomless pit of love and support, and I don't know what I would do without you. It is no coincidence that we moved around the corner from eachother. You are heaven sent.

Jenn (sister) you are always there for us. You are not just my sister in law, you are my sister. You are a part of my soul, and I love you more than you will ever know. Thank you.

Tiffany, I love you. You are my best friend. I am so grateful that I can send my kids to you, and not have to worry one bit. You are an amazing woman. They love you and your family, and that says so much about how you treat them.

Irene....where do I even begin. You are an angel on earth. You are there physically and emotionally when I need you. You have been my rock. No matter how old a girl gets, she always wants her mom when she is sad and hurt. You have been my Mom for me. I thank you and so does my Mom., for being there when she couldn't.

I am so blessed to have such marvelous women in my life. To have mothers, sisters and friends is no small thing , and I am grateful to realize how blessed I am.

Happy Birthday Katie!!!!

Katie's Birth Day

3 months

18 months

3 years

4 years

almost 5

I can't believe how big she has gotten. She is 5 years old. Katie is so smart and funny. She loves going to pre-school, and picks things up so fast. She loves her friends, and is really easy going. I love Katie!!! HappyBirthday!!

5 years.....

Katie is turning 5 on monday. This has been blowing my mind. How can I have a 5 year old? How did it go by so fast? Also, how has she not always been like she is today? I watch videos of when she was little, and I think how was she that little? How did my life mean anything without my little buddy by my side? It is amazing how time plays tricks with your mind. I can't remember how it felt not to worry about my kids, or how it felt to only think about myself. Well, I am still pretty good about that. I have enjoyed living in the bubble of my life. The bubble that is my home, and my kids. I have loved being able to shut life outside, and play inside. That it is enough right now, just for it to be "us". They don't need their friends, or activities outside of what we do together. But now that Katie is turning 5, she is going into school this fall. She will be subject to life. I am going to have to take her to school. Don't get me wrong, she is soooo ready to go. She can't wait to be "a big girl" and go to kindergarten. She wishes she was there now. I don't. I am stuck between loving watching her grow up, and seeing how much she is her own person, and wanting her to stay just like this forever.
Just a few of my melancholy thoughts. I know that one of the reasons I am so reluctant for her to grow up, is that my youngest is now three. I am not done having little ones. We are in the process of adopting, but it is hard not to be in control. Ok..... I swear I am not this depressed about my life. I am extremely happy, and blessed in so many ways. Good grief!!! I think I will stop while I am ahead, and say that I love Katie, and can't wait to see the woman she will become.